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Letters: D is for Denial

delusionEver wondered what it’s like to feel lost in it all? Chances are, you already have.

Denial is perhaps one of the most horrifying things you’ll find in life—and it’s no closet boogeyman. Denial has no solid shape, lives in all climates, and is a disease which can effect anyone and everyone.

Lovecraft once said “the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.” But there’s something which can be just as fear-striking: demons festering because we are blind to them. We allow the unknown to live in ourselves, and dismiss the suffering of others.

One of the first things that comes to my mind, is the character of Jack Torrance in Stephen King’s “The Shining.” He struggles with anger and alcohol, and though he knows his problems exist, they remain inside him as waiting vessels for the evil inside the Overlook Hotel. Often times, the nasty things inside us are opportunists. They stake out times of stress and hardship, and will bleed through into our actions given the chance. Most healthy people will see this taking place, and act accordingly. They manage their problems before they become serious.

But some people never see these problems, and that’s when it become horrifying. (more…)

More Upcoming Books?!

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You heard correctly. There’s a whole bunch of new projects in the pipeline, and they’re gearing to pop out of my mind and onto paper (or your kindle. Either way.)

Part of the challenge in writing books, is the temptation to strive for perfection. Often times, I write and rewrite endlessly until some kind of stability is reached. Not everything can be a magnum opus, but I don’t want to be publishing half-assed material. What would be the point then?

So they’re taking a little time, but I’ve got four different titles in various stages. The one I’m most excited for right now should be releasing within the next month or so, titled “Post Mortem Manipulations.” It’s a collection of three short horror stories, and should be a welcoming introduction to my prose. It will be released in paperback, hardcover, and perhaps audiobook.

TheBareBonesDietAlso on the forefront is my novella “The Bare Bones Diet.” I began writing it around November/December of last year, and has quickly become one of the most challenging and exciting stories I’ve told so far. It’s gone through a couple different drafts, and I’m giving it another polish before it goes out. It’s creepy, it’s sad, and will probably have you opening the fridge for a snack (just kidding, you probably won’t be hungry at all.)

In the meantime, I’ll be sharing new prose and verse on here regularly. I send my thanks to all of you who have shown your enthusiasm, and so kindly shared my work around. It’s a joy to hear back from readers, and I’m always open to your feedback and suggestions.

Now if I may be excused, there are drafts calling to me. They must be completed before they devour all I hold dear. Be back soon!

A Man Upstairs: Thoughts on Poetry

Thumbnail__0001_ManUpstairs_fullcoverI have a grave secret—one that has bothered me for several months now.

I’m not a poet… Not the last time I checked, anyway.

So why on God’s green earth did I publish a full book of poetry?

The short version of this story, is that I was frustrated at the time. I was looking up different spoken word artists, and stumbled upon the work of Steven Jesse Bernstein. Prior to that, I loved the work of Tom Waits and Ken Nordine, who both experimented with music and poetry in their own ways. Their work gave me a taste for punchy storytelling, but Bernstein’s work was the tipping point. I was feeling dry on writing standard prose, so I took this as an opportunity to experiment.

After hearing the collected tracks of his album “Prison,” I was overwhelmed with a desire to write something in the same vein. The gears turned for awhile, and around September 2016, I began writing the poems. One after the other. Line after line. It was some of the most fun I’d ever had writing in years, which was due in part to the challenge.

100 pages later, I had a comprehensive journey into humor, horror, depression, and insomnia. It’s probably one of the strangest works I’ve written (though stranger ones are still in the pipeline,) and I struggle to describe what it even is. I suppose you could call it horror, some of it is dark humor, and some could be classified as slices of life.

I wrote when I was angry, when I was depressed, when I was anxious, and perhaps the spectrum of emotion is embedded in there. Some of them are more elusive. “Cornflakes” for example, was written on a night where I couldn’t sleep–too frantic and anxious for an exam I was due for the next day. The poem flew out of me, and despite what I was feeling, it’s probably one of the most colorful and humorous pieces in the book. “The Red Letters” is another one of my favorites–especially to read aloud. Despite how grim and upsetting both scenarios are, they happen to have a contrasting sense of humor and timing. It’s not something I planned going in, and I’m not sure how effective it is, but I’m pleased with what came out of it.

The lesson to be taken from this?

No matter what your interests are, it’s always good to experiment. Try new things, and make discoveries. Out of all the things I was excited for in writing, I never expected to be so pleased with poetry.

“A Man Upstairs” is available on Amazon in kindle and paperback. The audiobook version is soon to come, and will be read by yours truly.

Ebook: https://www.amazon.com/Man-Upstairs-Unsettling-Verse-ebook/dp/B0716898ZN/

Paperback: https://www.amazon.com/Man-Upstairs-Unsettling-Verse/dp/1545355088/

Check it out, and by all means, leave a review!

All the best.